Nothing But Faith

For the past few months, I have been preparing, mentally, physically and spiritually for what the Lord has planned for me. And for one small second, I am going to crawl out of the tiny shy girl that never asks for anything or accepts any praise willingly and say that I am doing something big. That I am doing something amazing.

I don't need anyone to tell me that what I am doing is amazing, especially for being so young. Because I know that. I know that what I am doing is amazing. But, as I am sure you all understand, it is not me who is doing this. This great and awesome thing, this mission for the Lord to bring more people to Him, is not my doing. Our all-powerful, mighty God is the sole person behind this.

I am admitting to everyone reading this that this journey has not been an easy one for me. In fact, I sat down to write this after crying to my mom telling her how unworthy I am of such praise, asking her "what if" questions. "What if I can't do this, mom?" "What if I fail every person who has already agreed to support me?" "What if I don't raise the funds?" "What if there aren't enough people to support me?" "What if I am not the person that was meant to do such an amazing thing?"

While all of these questions are valid...they are simply out of fear. It is the devil, testing me, begging me to give up. Because he does not want me to go and do great things for the Lord. It pleases him to see my tears, to see me fearful that I am not capable.

But friends, I am stronger than the devil, and I know I was meant to do this. I have never felt so called to anything in my entire life. The Lord never says it will be easy, sometimes the things He asks of us are hard, and we are tested, and He puts our faith on trial. But it is only to grow us and bring us closer to Him.

So I am here to tell you that I am not giving up on this, no matter what it takes I will go to Europe and I will serve the Lord in whatever ways He asks of me. Because I work solely for the Lord and there is no room for the devil in my life. I have so many good things ahead of me and I will not let Him stand in my way. So I am telling you, in writing, on the internet for all to see and hold me to, that I am not giving up, and I never will give up, because the Lord my God is a good one, and He loves me more than I could ever imagine and it is all I can do to bring Him joy. My only want in life is to do exactly what He wants of me. So join me, join me in trusting Him and His plan for me. I know that I am capable of the impossible through Him.

Have faith in me, friends, have faith in what the Lord has planned for me. Because I am His vessel and I am going and doing what He has asked of me. I hope you all know how hard of a task support raising is...I hope you know how hard it is to get people interested in what I am doing and how hard I have worked to even get to this point. "Going therefore" is no easy thing, in fact, it is an impossible thing. But through God, it becomes possible. Join me in accomplishing the impossible, support me, pray for me, without all of you, none of this would be possible. I hope you all know how much of an impact you are making by even caring about the work the Lord is doing through me.

I love you, God loves you, you are precious to Him and He is honored to call you His. I am honored to be a Daughter of my King and worth more than rubies and diamonds in His eyes. And that, my dear friends, is why I have a heart only to serve Him and I am praying that you do too.